Waiting

[marcus_woods]

A couple of days ago everything was seeming so much better. I had finally told some of what happened to me to Nick and Officer Jacobs. It let a big weight off of me. It doesn't make the hurt go away, my parents broke me in ways that will probably show up and fuck with me for the rest of my life, but there were people who believed me and that

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[nicholas_baker]

*eyes closed, hears the door open*

*opens his eyes*

Marcus.

[marcus_woods]

You finally decided to wake up.

*walks to the bedside*

You still look less than healthy.

[nicholas_baker]

No one will tell me what happened.

*frowns*

Are you all right?

[marcus_woods]

I'm fine. Not a scrape.

*pulls up a chair*

You got grabbed by a vampire who had you for dinner.

[nicholas_baker]

*nods his head*

Yeah. It's weird. I heard him more than saw him, but he was there. He was wicked pissed at me.

*struggles with his words*

It's like...his presence was there and he kept telling me I had to fight and to think about Mom and Dad, you, Xander and Tres.

I could hear the people in the ambulance saying stuff about my pulse and Jesse was getting pissed and said I had to fight.

Weird, yeah?

[marcus_woods]

I don't know. Sounds like something your brother would do.

I'm glad you listened to him.

[nicholas_baker]

He never gave me any credit for figuring stuff out on my own.

*looks over at Marcus*

I would have fought anyway. Wasn't going to leave any of you.

You know if the roles were reversed, I'd be pretty pissed off at you right now.

[marcus_woods]

*blinks*

I should be. Right now I'm having a hard time feeling anything for some reason.

Kind of like nothing's real you know?

[nicholas_baker]

*reaches out and smooths down Marcus's hair*

You can be mad at me. I'm mad at me. It was stupid and nearly killed me. My parents can't even look me in the eyes so at least you can still do that. I haven't completely fucked things up with us, right?

*blinks back tears*

I never mean to upset you, Marc.

[marcus_woods]

*refuses to look up*

I told you I was holding on by my fingernails, I didn't know how to talk you out of it and you swore you'd be careful.

I feel like if you'd died a lot of us would have followed in a lot of ways.

*finally looks up completely pissed*

And stop pulling this don't be mad, I'm your best friend shit, I'm allowed to be fucking mad!

[nicholas_baker]

I didn't tell you that you couldn't be mad!

I totally said you could raincheck hitting me later.

*sighs*

I fucked up, Marc. You want me to say I wish I'd listened to you before and not went out there? Fine, because I do. Except it doesn't change what happened because I didn't listen.

But I didn't die. Like it or not, you're the reason I am here because you got there in time.

Don't tell me I can't be grateful that you heard me call for you.

[marcus_woods]

No, you didn't tell me I couldn't be mad, you just keep trying to make sure we're ok, well at the moment we're not ok.

And I didn't get there in time, you can be grateful all you want but you shouldn't have gotten hurt in the first place.

Fuck!

*sits back in the chair and looks at the ceiling*