There has been a second suicide in my sophmore class. It's ... shocking. Three deaths that all impact one class. My sophmore class. Maybe I jinx them. This has been the best year of my life and everyone is dying. Irony?

I dyed my hair. It is now a very bright red.

I feel like crap.

Can't sleep.

Hm so I haven't updated in ... FOREVER! But I don't feel like repeating the same shit all the time. It gets old. So... airenbe;bnbjweg;JWRBKDFETDBSNY;W hey i spelled air! cool! haha Hmm well what's new that I can update...I really think I'm going to try homeschooling next year. Maybe come back senior year... I just don't want to be with people for ( Read more... )

Meh I feel like updating just for the sake of updating. My mom and I got in a fight today over the stupidest thing. It was huge but after she said it was all my fault I instantly acted as if everything was normal. Happy even... She told me it was all my fault. For the first time she said something that made sense to me. Something true. She's always ( Read more... )

So the first day of training was fun. I met some people that were really cool.Everything went well but now I'm uber tired. It's a very social doing ... to bad most of the people there aren't very socialbe..

I've stayed up all night. Why? Because I am insane. Insomnia .... not so much fun. I feel like I'm about to die from exhaustion yet no sleep. argh. When I do sleep it's for a limited time. Well at least I don't dream.. well something I can't control. My dreams are always so... disturbing. *sigh* Well hopefully tonight I can get sleep considering ( Read more... )

I don't really know what to say. I had so much to say and so much to rant about and then... all gone. My friend moved away and I lost the chance to say goodbye because of my mom... I hate to say it but it's always because of her that things like this happens. I never get closure in anything. I was really angry and felt sick. So far these past few ( Read more... )

so I just broke up with my boyfriend online. *sigh* I didn't want to do it online. I just never had a chance to talk to him and well now *shakes head* There was no other way. I no longer felt comfortable being with him but not really. It was all actually quite stupid. Meh whatever. My new hobby : ( Read more... )

Yesterday was probably one of the best days I've had in a long time. Sadly it had nothing to do with my friends or "boyfriend". In school every thing went smoothly and in sixth period Luis and I got along pretty well making the harrasment from earlier that day forgotten. I came home and found out that I have a job interview .. TODAY! That made me ( Read more... )

So ... once again I have left my poor journal deserted. I have left a lot of things behing and somewhat forgotten. Even though all of those things are still a part of me they've been neglected. It hurt for so long to just go back a little but now I think I can. Somethings still hurt but then again they will always hurt. They made me stronger though ( Read more... )

People can't always be there for you. No matter how desperately you need someone they will not come. It doesn't matter. It doesn't really matter. It's only a phase. it's only a phase...