...if only I had all the answers for myself

[mariah_c]

I'm confused. I've always been in control of my destiny, I never allowed anything to stand in the way of what I wanted and felt that I deserved. But what do you do when the lines of friendship get blurred, smudged by the hand of doubt and guilt and unrest

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[celine_angelil]

*All curled up on the couch, she was flipping through the digital cable channels like it was somebody's job. She yawned a little bit, and looked at her watch. And then over at Rene, and Rene Charles who were both sound asleep in a chair together. She quickly got bored with the TV, and so she picked up her cell phone and dialed Mariah's phone number.*

[mariah_c]

*walks into her room in her Manhattan loft, finally free of her entourage, and sits at the edge of the bed, relieved to finally be off her feet*

*starts unstrapping the stillettos from her feet, notices the flashing cell phone on the night stand, sees it's your number calling, picks up*

*in a high-pitched tone* Ceeeeeee! how you doin'?

[celine_angelil]

Really good. *yawns* Tired. I don't think I'm used to doing my shows like this..one after another.

How are you doing sweetie?

*She sprawled herself out on the couch, and waited for a reply*

[mariah_c]

*pulls one shoe off and drops it to the ground*

I'm not surprised. I don't know how you manage to stay up past eight o'clock any night.

*starts wrangling with the other shoe*

eh, I'm... okay. a lot on my mind lately. seeing Tommy the other day didn't help improve my mood much, y'know?

[colin_firth]

Wanting the people you care about to be happy, isn't a crime, love. Don't worry so much. :)

[mariah_c]

you're right. but sometimes, they make me feel like it's a crime :) thank you, doll.

[colin_firth]

Well, they should sod off then.

[mariah_c]

I wish you'd go tell them that. such a lovely gentlemanly way of saying 'fuck off'!

[andre_3000]

Damn girl.

[mariah_c]

where you at!

[drew_barrymore]

Good song.

I think that it's easiest to feel lonely surrounded by a bunch of people. When you're choosing to be alone it's different.

[mariah_c]

you know, I never thought of it that way? I guess my problem now is that I can't decide whether I'm alone because I want to be, have to be, or because that's just the way it is.

I got Full Throttle in my stocking, now that's a good movie.

[drew_barrymore]

Maybe you should just try to be content with whatever you have. It might feel better if it felt like a choice.

Thanks ;)

[mariah_c]

good call. although I have to admit that might be easier said than done.

[edward_j_norton]

I just wanted to say hello and that I was thinking about you.

Ed

[mariah_c]

it's been a while; I've been waiting for you to come back. ;)

happy new year, I hope your holidays were spectacular.

candy canes and peppermints,
MC