i stayed home todayyy ( Read more... )

i hate how everyone's being a bitch.
i hate how i can't stand being called all the time.
i hate school, period.

i miss having a best friend.
no, i miss her being my best friend.
and i miss him, a lot.

today was kind of.. eye-opening.
i'm so sick of girls. EWEAFSA.
sluts x 10.

=/

so.. i gossip a lot.
i can't keep secrets.
&& today was pretty much drama-filled.

but whatever. i'm not getting involved.

today started out.. okay, i guess.
then it got worse.

and it's AMAAAZZZiNGGG how someone can brighten your dayy.
i love this boy. seriously. i adore him x 6049884. [=

i'mmissinghim.
but life is better now, right?

i hope so

i'm so tired of fighting ( Read more... )

shittiest mood ever today ( Read more... )

sometimes, i wish i was brave. i wish i was stronger. i wish i could feel no pain. i wish i was young. i wish i was shy. i wish i was honest. i wish i was you, not i. because i feel so mad, i feel so angry. i feel so careless. so lost, confused again. i feel so cheap, so used, unfaithful. lets start over, lets start over. sometimes, i wish i was ( Read more... )

so tonight i was talking to someone.
and they said to me;

"you can get hurt by anyone. you can get hurt by your MOM."
and me and this other person were just like "yeah but you don't understand."
and they said "so what? you're just not going to date anyone the rest of your life?"

and it didn't matter much then.
but now it's really getting to me.

i'm SOOOO sick of people at school ( Read more... )

heartache = worst kind of pain ever ( Read more... )

i seriously feel like my entire body's broken. like, it just shut down and says to me "mariah i don't want to work anymore." tonight was so terrible i can't even begin to explain. i kind of wish people would have just left me alone, let me happy for my five minutes, instead of telling me things that ruin it. i'm sorry but i just think that's so ( Read more... )