I have betrayed you my love.  I had made a promise not to indulge in my own sexual pleasure until justice was brought upon your murderer.  I couldn't help myself.  I had gone on to a job, another rich nobody who I don't really give a shit about, I am just there to cause pain so they can get their rocks off.  I notice his car, walk over and one ( Read more... )

Blood is trickling from my arms again, Marius just doesn't understand anymore.  He tries, but there is no way I can explain it to him.  The only one I could explain it to, is the reason I sit here like this.  The blood is dripping down my hands, the wound has healed and the scar will still be there.  This has become my ritual, my confession, my ( Read more... )

I...I don't know what to say...it is just so raw right now...It happened again...You would think that the this being the second time it happened it would be easier to take...but god damnit is isn't.  Why did you have to die?  You had given me meaning again.  We had a connection!  It feels so wrong...knowing that I will have to deal with this again ( Read more... )

The meeting was canceled, and I, being upset about him and David did the only thing I knew to help get rid of the pain was to go out to the club.  So I asked a good Bishop if he would like to join me in having a bit a fun and join me going to a club.  I expected to be in a dark corner with him, letting him take control of me, to let me not think at ( Read more... )

I was reminded of you again...broke down too.  I wish I wasn't so stupid for thinking that I could have saved you from heart break, you told me that you would break my heart but I foolishly said you wouldn't...you left me all alone shortly after that...now since the great cataclysm, I have not seen or heard from you, I do not know if you are away ( Read more... )