I hate the night. For the sheer fact that I am alone ( Read more... )

Happy Valentines Day ( Read more... )

I know we all have issues. But do you need to drag yours into our lives ( Read more... )

12am thursday morning to around early friday morning it snowed. We got a good foot and over. I've never seen so much snow. I really don't like the snow, sure it's pretty and you get out of school for it (yay!) but it's cold.. Real cold ( Read more... )

So what’s been going on? Nothing per usual. Hanging out with Roy everyday, loving it. I feel like for once my life really isn't moving all the time, and I like it. I'm just waiting for some thing to come by and mess it up though ( Read more... )

Tonight marks my one-year anniversary of not cutting! Congrats to me, my mother bought me flowers and took Roy and I out to dinner (I ate to much). It's unbelievable that for one year through all of the hard times and the cravings and urges, and low points I have yet to pick up a knife.. Well I can't say I haven’t picked up a knife so for one year ( Read more... )

I went to Seattle for two weeks. I had fun, but it was hell. I missed Roy so fucking much. I smoked two packs of asses, and burned threw some nice amount of minutes on my cell phone. It was well worth it. I called Roy a few hundred times ( Read more... )

I'm leaving tomorrow. 2 weeks back home, to Seattle. I miss it but right now I know I'm going to miss Maine more. I'm going to miss Roy more. I seriously for a moment did not want to go, I do not want to leave him, even though I know I'll be home in 14 days. This will be the longest we have been apart in 4 months, I believe the longest before now ( Read more... )

My mother caught me smoking. Well not really caught me I confessed. She came into my room and told me we needed to talk. Second time I've heard those words today. And then she told me to look her in the eyes and be completely honest. She was like you've been smoking. So I shook my head yea, and asked her why. She said because she counted her ( Read more... )

I should have been there, but I wasn't. I knew and I didn't react. If only you guys could know how I felt. "We need to talk." Those are shattering words.. Words thrown out like a punch that leave you speechless.. What am I suppose to do? What am I suppose to say? I’m sorry baby.. I should have been there ( Read more... )