I am rather emotional right now. Obviously, because the only time I livejournal is when I am conflicted. I am so torn up inside it is crazy. I just want to help people that is the only thing that will make me whole. That and my true lover. I want so badly to find him/her. I do not know why but, my whole life has been consumed with finding the ( Read more... )

Where did we meet: Kistler ( Read more... )

Where did we meet: out side of Kistler ( Read more... )

Where did we meet:duh, we lived together the first day of college ( Read more... )

My life is going in a down ward spiral and I seem to be trying to bring everyone with me. Not intentionally of course but for some reason my thought processes don't involve others. I have a total disregaurd for other people. I have never been like that before. I just want to apologize to the people that I've just been inconsiderate of and hurt ( Read more... )

Well, yesterday was very eventful. I did not sleep the night before so, I could study for my test. I took my test at 8:30 followed by a lab at 10. I went back to molly and emily's and wrote my LIB paper!!! I then went and saw my sister in Grand Rapids!!! It was sooooooooooo nice to see her!!! I love her so much! I miss my other sister though ( Read more... )

Well, it is 3 am and I have much studying to do...BIO yuck...I am so nervous about school in general. I can not and I will not fail but I have a major fear of it. I must do well and it stresses me out completely. I just want to thrive. I know I can do it-I definitely feel a lack of concentration. All I want to do is sleep. It frightens me that ( Read more... )

This weekeend was very enlightening for me...I realized that any guy that makes me feel horrible really isn't worth it. I am very bitter right now with the men population. I feel as if all men, every word out of their mouth is just to get some play. Well, from now on I am done falling for it! A guy is really going to have to put forth some ( Read more... )

well, I am in bad axe right now. It is a nice break. I think I have finally got my head on straight! About damn time. I am done letting people take advantage of me and walk all over me. I have too many people that care about me to let people that don't consume my life ( Read more... )

What a crazy night last night...WOW, I haven't been called a slut since I was in high school!!! I guess, maybe, it was deserved but it definately hurt my feelings. I am actually greatful for Melissa flipping out because I realize how crazy guys make girls. I am done trying to find "the one" it will just happen ( Read more... )