hey you guys should come to the nightmare theater presentation of my bloody valentine!... it is so awesome and only a dollar! ask paul... never mind i will call him friday ( Read more... )

wow i dont remeber writing that last post... many that makes me look fucking crazy... avi and i are planning a break for it... to get out of pensacola... maybe go to gainsville if we can manage it... but who knows... if anything we will just go with our origanal plan and just go to usa... who knows anything any more... i am exactly 22 days "sober" ( Read more... )

well i have been going to the cafe a lot lately... wierd to go places with out avi... but nice at the same time... i met this realy cool guy there... i saw him around at the last place but... he is a realy cool kid... also i ran into brandon there a few times and even met him up there... i missed him so that was cool... 4th of july... never realy ( Read more... )

i miss him so much... god i am pathetic... he has only been gone for 5 days and i have 6 more days till he comes back... what am i going to do when he breaks my heart and leaves me for good... oh well...
i went out with tracey today... it was cool looked for a dress... blah blah...

well.... my grandma is getting married in august... that makes three weddings for me to go to this year... well at least they are not funerals... matt is in idaho... ummm... not much else to report... amber you are my favorite vagina... such a shame that it will be souly pual's soon... :) it should be mine and mine alone!!

there are times when i just fucking HATE you soooo much...

matt is leaving monday... oh well... i have isolated my self... it sucks when the only person you really hang out with leaves... this wasnt done on purpose... i guess people just grow apart... i just want to leave this place... suicide is a thought but i have never really been one for long term commimitments... god i need to learn how to spell... ( Read more... )

yesterday at about noonish my chest started to hurt... it felt like a 100 lb man was sitting on my chest... it was hard for me to breathe... and it still feels that way... :( my g-ma thought that it was stress at first which makes sense but it hasnt stopped hurting... i cant afford a doctor so hopfully it will get better eventually...

every time i see you i love you more than ever
every time i kiss you i miss you more than ever

LOGAN I LOVE YOU!!! I FOUND A TICKET FOR YOU!! I AM GETTING IT TOMORROW SO YOU CAN COME WITH ME... unless you have something more important than the midnight showing of the last star wars like you know... NOTHING!