sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....shit's happenin. not with rob. he's a loser junky and a liar. that didn't last very long. can't say i wasn't kinda crushed.

but now i'm talking to steve, amie's cousin. and he's really an awesome person. we've hung out everyday for more than a week. idk...we'll seeeee. 

 Very happy. Very investigatory, contemplative, and reflective. OMG JUST DOWNLOADED THE BELL JAR NARRATED BY MAGGIE GYLLENHAAL. AWESOME.

 Today, I went to school. I had statistics first, but I just went to the library and printed out some articles. School is amazing. I mean, my English teacher and i met today at 1:30 and....he is just an amazing teacher. Seriously. We met and discussed what I would write about. i brainstormed at the library really quick. Then he just pulled like ( Read more... )

I don't know....Anthony just called me. To hear his voice tears me up inside. I miss him like crazy. But I hate him so much and I know that I can never be with him. He brought so much pain to my life. I don't think he'll ever understand what he did to me. I hate him. But I feel like I still love him. Last night I went to bed with that headache and ( Read more... )

so my legs hurt from sprinting with matt on saturday night...and my stomach hurts from dancing so much. i want to be skinny so fucking bad. i tried not to eat today. i had counseling today. it went well...but i have like this tension headache and i feel like an awful person for being me. i hate myself sometimes. don't say i'm too hard on myself cuz ( Read more... )

 Drunk. 

 I am depressed. I probably won't be able to sleep because of it. I feel bad because Justine is my best friend. But i just looked at Kristina's facebook...and she has a picture of me and her up. I miss her. I miss her so much. I am in pain ( Read more... )

 I have been depressed lately. I have been drinking too much, and spending money on alcohol and cigarettes ( Read more... )

 I can't stop playing the music. There is a coldness inside of me that i don't want to face ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I posted. Went to a party in Allston on the 13th. It was wicked fun. I went with Amie and all her friends. Dave was there. I danced and drank and had a wicked good time. A lot of guys were hitting on me. it was flattering. I ran into Travis Beliveau. That was cool. Ij gave him my number. I made out with some kid named Matt ( Read more... )