i finally broke it off with stephen on friday night. i guess i was acting weird and he could tell something was up. it was falling apart for me for a long time. i just...i loved him but i wasn't happy with him.  it broke my heart to hurt him. he stayed over that night...we held each other all night...and cried. the love died :'( i'm so sorry that i ( Read more... )

 I don't know where to begin. My misery could somehow be stemming from the fact that i haven't been journaling at all the last few months. 
I feel empty and lost. I hate medication. I don't want to be on it anymore. i don't want to have to rely on pills to be happy. So, I will not. I will fight and fight through the cloud hanging over my head until ( Read more... )

 Stephen ( Read more... )

 ive What You Love: 50 Questions to Ask Yourself ( Read more... )

 I'm sitting in the living room with my precious little boy. He has a blonde mohawk. It's time for a haircut though, where Steve and I shaved his head is growing back quickly. His little nose is so cute, and he has the most beautiful blue eyes. He's watching Thomas the steam engine or whatever its called. Occasionally saying something like "what's ( Read more... )

 I MISS MY MOTHER ( Read more... )

 I haven't written in a while. I am not very grounded lately and I was lying in bed when I realized that thoughts were flowing and i should write something ( Read more... )

My earliest memories of my mother are irreplaceable. As a little girl I absolutely adored her. She was funny, affectionate, and vibrant. Even though she wasn't around much, I always knew she loved me. She used to write me letters, and they always said how proud she was of me, and how much she missed me. When I saw her she used to say "I miss you. ( Read more... )

 Well ( Read more... )

I haven't written in a very long time. The last month has been interesting. i always wonder where rock bottom is, but I seem to reinvent it all the time ( Read more... )