Doubt it's a crazy thing. It can eat at you and stalk you down. Sometimes we are strong enough to squash us and sometimes we are at its' mercy.

Lately, I can't find the patience to do anything. I find myself with a shorter and shorter fuse. Right now I am fighting the urge to chuck my laptop and say fuck it and go with the I don't care attitude. I am forcing myself to write this in hopes that I will get in a better mood after I get this negative attitude out of me. I don't know what is ( Read more... )

So I can't believe my livejournal is still active. Its been 145 weeks since I last updated my journal. What is that like over two years?! Perhaps this will keep me sane and motivated to get things done. Its late and I need to sleep. Perhaps more tomorrow?

They didn't have you where I come from ( Read more... )

June 23 is when he left and he and I are not really sure when he is coming back. We are hoping that he gets to come back in time to see our first born child get born but there are no guarantees.

I miss him already. Its only been a short time but it doesn't make me miss him any less. I have waited all my life to fall in love like this. A love that I ( Read more... )

THIS IS NOT AIMED AT ERNIE! JUST A GOOD SONG...A SAD ONE BUT A GOOD ONE. THX CARLA :)

Where is your Heart?
~Kelly Clarkson

I don't believe
In the smile that you leave
When you walk away
And say goodbye
Well I don't expect
The world to move underneath me
But for God's sake
Could you try?
I know that you're true to me
You're always there
You say you ( Read more... )

So its like 12:30 am again and I am still not in bed...I have no idea what is going on with that. I think the baby like to stay up late. I am going out of my mind or head (physically and mentally) hormones and that is my answer. I am breaking out with pimples and eczema and I can't do anything about it because the medicines to treat them gets ( Read more... )

So its like 12:30 in the morning and I can't sleep. I think it had to do something with the fact that I took such a late nap today but hey I was freaking tired and nauseous. Well what can I expect when I am 7 weeks along. I don't understand how women can do it. I just don't. I can't deal with the feeling that you are going to throw up all day and ( Read more... )

Forgive, sounds good ( Read more... )

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking ( Read more... )