the last week. one more test. one more practical. i cant focus. but at this point... i think i know everything i can know. ive been doing good on all the practice stuff. i think im just scared that ill freeze up or something. but i can do it. im gonna do it. im gonna get a job that doesnt fucking suck and that i want to do. untill then, i just need ( Read more... )

i just passed the my EMT class. State exam next week. state practical the morning after. the national registry and im set.

FUCK. YEAH.

im gonna make it.

so all my credits are gonna transfer back to florida. awesome. now i just need my damn background check to come through and get hired at this job and life will finally be going back to the right directions.

dorm sex.... is fun. i dont know why it turned me on so much hahahah. THE END

i am loosing my mind.

i hate being stubborn. why cant i fucking give up. this is why i keep to myself.

i count the hours untill the lights will fall out ( Read more... )

got fired today. AWESOME! what. the. fuck.

and now... everything starts to circle the drain. circle one is back

and apparently its everything.

my blood fuckin boils with every cursed step
im walkin on pins and needles its so cliche and true
it all washes off in a submergence of sin
ill keep fighting this war cause one day i gotta win.

i need to get this job today. 16 an hour would save me right now. seems like a decent place and job also. i need this badly ( Read more... )

i hate computers. i just wrote a long ass poem and it fuckin erased it.

i give up, i surrender. i can save everyone but myself from here.