i got a job yesterday. 11 an hour + commision. i still need fuckin unemployment monies from the weeks i couldnt work. god life is so fucking good right now. i just want to be happy. All the important but meaningless bases are covered, the stress of daily necesities are taken care of. All i need now is to feel alive. i broke into that feeling ( Read more... )

is seriously wrong with me. My meds dont work anymore. i cant afford to go back to the doctor. I dont know who i am. i dont know what im doing. i dont know where to go. i hate....all of this. Im tired of being angry. im tired of being unhappy. i just want to feel good again. i cant live life like this. its to agonizing, its to dark. i feel worse ( Read more... )

has become one endless fucking joke. or it always has been and i was fucking stupid enough to believe otherwise. Im so tired of this endless series of dissapointments ( Read more... )

some words are just really hard to say. i dont know if it was right or not but i dont know. i fucking hate my life right now.

are turning strange. what the fucks am i to do ( Read more... )

lost faith in everything. my fuckin heart is broken. my soul is gone. but im gonna walk through these streets like the living dead.

i havent eaten in 5 days. im running off nicotine and soda that i keep puking up. and i AM quitting the nicotine habit. its fucking annoying.

so fucking sick right now. girls are absolutely insane. she breaks up with me wednesday night then calls me the next morning freaking out and sayin how bad she needs me in her life and wants to be with me. The does it all over again the next night. im fucking crushed. im fucking devastated. my heart has never actually felt like this before. yeah i ( Read more... )

so ive given up my ciggarettes and replaced them with an electronic ciggarette. all i inhale now is nicotine vapor so i get my fix. ive been gettin everything ready for EMT school next semester and im super stoked that im finnally doing it. i also think ive sucessfully made everyone in the world hate me. i cant go to a show without getting in a ( Read more... )

the worlds spinnin and im still living. what about when the world stops? would survival be possible? possibilities possibilities ( Read more... )

new apartment. new city. new life. new school. its all good. except the unreasonable sense of impending doom looming above me.

my twenty first birthday was a series of most unfortunate events for anyone who has wondered. but i finally have internet access again at least.