So, maybe I'm being overly sensitive..which does on occasion happen.  I just feel like all of my friends are shitty lately.  I feel like i'm constantly excluded from plans.  It seems like my friends will say they miss me, say they want to see me, but nothing ever comes of it.  Because of this, I've felt so very alone lately ( Read more... )

I am so disappointed with myself.  I was really strong there for about 2 weeks..and then i fell back into it...all the feelings, the expectations...and what happened?  The same thing that always happens.  I get thrown to the back of the line.  I seriously do not know what is wrong with me and why I can't just let it go ( Read more... )

Lapse in judgement.  That is what I had.  Will it happen again?  Yeah, probably.

I find myself more and more often unable to sleep.  I lie in bed and continually mull over things. I think about my day.  I think about tomorrow.  I think about what I should have eaten, instead of what I did eat.  I think about giving my dog a bath.  I think about the people that I miss.  I think about how I should exercise and I think about how ( Read more... )

I haven't posted to live journal in years and these last couple of months I've felt that draw..that pang to start journaling again.  Maybe it's because I've changed jobs, girlfriends, apartments and friends or maybe it's because I've been lonely and I need to talk...or maybe those are the same reasons ( Read more... )