we're moving out of la :(
and to another land
scary.

buy a shitty winnebago
drive around the us with the kitties
park in walmart parking lots at night
eat lots of mac n cheese from boxes
write shitty poems.

literally ANYTHING sounds better than what we're doing right now.

now i am off to work where HOPEFULLY i will have time to use the bathroom more than once a day. no.goddammnnnnn.comment.

nyu gave me an "aid award" of ( Read more... )

- still cancer-free ( Read more... )

recently i had a dream where kenny and i were in paris and it felt like everything fell into place. he looked at me and mentioned how everything about me seemed to make much more sense since we were there. the way i dress, speak, see the world, etc., all fit in with that one city. it was one of those rare lovely dreams ( Read more... )

i got into NYU.
for grad school.
what. in. the fuck.
i found out yesterday and i am still stoked.
i feel like things will start to look up in a major way and i am finally getting back on track.

so now i got a call to go show my shit at one of the grad schools in NYC. still waiting to hear from the other one, which is no surprise since they lost 1/2 of my application and i had to resend it (sexthy ( Read more... )

i applied to grad school in a land rather far from here. waitin to hear back from these folks is like torture. i purposely left my computer at home this weekend (we went up to SF) so i wouldn't check and check and check my email some more. i'm going to leave the house in a little bit because otherwise i will just hover over my email. lametastic ( Read more... )

january ( Read more... )

please keep the xmas songs away from me so i don't start sobbing again.
8 years later, still not much easier.