sooo... i don't like hypocrites... i try not to be one, but I knwo everyone is at some point. regardless, I am aving issues with one in particular, and I dunno what to do about it... he continues to say he'll always be there for me, any time i need it, but when we see eachother one-on-one, or in a group setting, it's very much like I don't exist ( Read more... )

I find just posting helps these days... I miss being a couple. For awhile there it felt like the real deal, now it just feels like another college relationship that won't last for some stupid reason or other. Seriously, it sucks. between too mcuh school adn not enough Matt, I have had alot of issues dealing with the stress load that comes with ( Read more... )

however, i really wanted to put this up somewhere where people might see it ( Read more... )

it's been a long time.. i find less comfort in journaling online... so if you need to know anything, or care to talk to me... please, feel free to IM me... and if you're reading this and don't know my IM, then seriously, why do you even bother....

fairwell... for what is likely to be quite some time

week one kicked ass... what a great week, so much smiling ( Read more... )

so i dreamt last night, and remember it quite vividly ( Read more... )

so i dreamt last night... and for the first time in months, i didn't wake up in a cold sweat, or shaking, or anything else that resembles a nervous twitch ( Read more... )

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soooo... yeah ( Read more... )