The food was good....but I am now single.
I guess I didn't need to figure out why I was still with him. He already figured out that we didn't need to be together.

"It's not you, it's me."
"I love you, but I'm not in love with you."

...I always said my life should be a bad Lifetime movie.

It hurts.
I've been blindsided.

Last day of May. I don't even want to think about the passage of time ( Read more... )

Apparently, I am content in my mediocrity ( Read more... )

Trying not to break
But Im so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how
Trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me

10 Smart Girl Motivational Forces

1. Set realistic goals
2. Readjust your concept of exercise
3. Delete guilt
4. Be flexible
5. Go for convenience
6. Practice patience
7 Think the big picture - CEO
8. Take pride
9. Don't give up
10. Enjoy the high

*CEO- Cumulative Exercise Output. It's not just about one days work, It's about long term success...building &  ( Read more... )

Who knew my journey would lead me to realize I have commitment problems. I want to follow through but don't, and on something as simple a a ten minute update each night in my blog ( Read more... )

Quite the uninspiring, non-productive weekend I had.

Wednesday: Burned nothing. Even though Jake did come over. We talked of course, and got nowhere.

Thursday: I did not dance. Too emotional. Had fun nonetheless. The drag show was soooo funny. The music was so good too. I just never had gone to Tilt without Jake til that night, and that's where our ( Read more... )

( A song that motivates me... )

Tuesday:
Today I was proud of myself for not being afraid to say what I was feeling to a co-worker about something she had made. And I gave my own idea. I am happy about this even though it was shot down. Because it's worth it for me to not be mousy.

Today one of my happy thoughts was an inside joke I laughed outloud to. "None for me! ::waves hand ( Read more... )

Monday:
Today was hard. Work was tough and so was my first day realizing my house is empty. It's just Aly and I. Which isn't a bad thing, just different.

I did the exercise where I write 100 things in 20 minutes that I would like to accomplish or be. But it says not to look for it for a couple of days. So I won't. It's kind of a blur, but it really ( Read more... )