Note to self: it is NOT a good idea to sleep with your ex, particularly when you are not completely over him and also sort of seeing someone else.

Why do I make my life unnecessarily complicated?!

I'm just so confused right now. I really don't know who I am anymore. I don't know who Ben is either, but I dont think he's the person I thought he was. But that leaves me still in love with a person who doesn't even exist and I can't get over that person, but I don't like the person he's become. I feel like such an idiot and that the entire ( Read more... )

I got into Birmingham!!!!! I'll be doing a PGCE there next year so so so so so excited!! And Ben didn't get in so ha! he sucks! Not that I told him that, I was very nice and supportive... but anyway, I'm staying in Birmingham yay!! Gotta get a 2:2 (lower offer than I thought) and I'm sure the letter will say something about getting work ( Read more... )

Ben broke up with me. I didn't see it coming. This was over a week ago and today is the first day I haven't been a total mess, and that I didn't cry literally as soon as I woke up (it took me a good two hours and a phone call to my mum to trigger it). I don't really want to go into all the details, the basic gist is that he's just not ready for ( Read more... )

Ok so I realise I haven't done a proper update in like forever, and when I start getting phone calls from some of my best friends saying "Oi, why haven't you told me about such and such" it's time to fill you in so i'll go for the standard list format ( Read more... )

Hmmmm feels like I haven't updated this thing in a while!  Had SUCH an awesome night on saturday - loved it!  Everyone was sooooooo awesome and I had such a gd time!  Jess came back from france for it, and we went out for a bday lunch, then had a bday tea and they got me cake and got some beautiful presents.  Was very amused by the turquoise theme ( Read more... )

 Martha = slightly hysterical!!  Sooooo much work, redbrick, dissertation, post-grad applications, STUFF to do and no time to do it!!!  I am busy all but one night next week and every day, during which time i need to read at least one shakespeare play and a 1000 page novel by friday and actually read more than one book by the fucking author i'm ( Read more... )

oh thank god i've found something to do!!  Am on work experience at the Times and it is relatively unexciting.  And by relatively I mean extremely.  I can understand that they must be very busy etc with a daily deadline, but this is definitely more office experience than work experience as such.  The woman who's in charge of me is very nice though ( Read more... )

so after 2.5 months of very limited drinking, I have woken up hungover for the last 3 days in a row.  it's good to be back!! went to Brum for the night on monday - saw my new house which was cool and got things a little sorted.  My room is definitely pretty small.  Sara can touch both walls at the same time (width ways) - I'm a couple of inches off ( Read more... )

Dear Martha,
I _______ you. You have a nice_________. You make me _______.
You should _______. Someday I will ______. You + me =________.
If I saw you now I'd __________. I want to ________ you. I would build a _______ just for you. If I could sing you any song it would be _________.
We could __________ under the stars.

Love,
_______________

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