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Tired
I am tired. Tired of crying over TV, commericails, movies, the sun rising or setting. Tired of crying when it rains or is hot. Tired of crying when people look at me and laugh because I am fat or crying or being a bitch. Tired of wanting to be normal, helpful, or whatevery else everyone wants me to be. Tired of doing the right thing for others ( Read more... ) -
Begging for the Darkness
With all there is going on around me I still beg for the darkness. To be in coolness with a lack of any light and sound.....to be free of the lies others and myself tell each other would be a huge relief. To me in the void of space and time with no feeling would be a welcome like none other that I crave. The thought of no thoughts just dark and ( Read more... ) -
depressed and busting with pain
Do you ever have days were you are so depressed that the thought of stopping crying hurts? The thoughts that "wouldn't it just be easier to go away?" The feelings that the only reason anyone calls you is because they want something from you or for you to do something for them. The knowing that things would be easier for your family and those who ( Read more... ) -
June 12, 2008
Did not sleep well last night. Having nightmares about my loves in my life. Will these ever end? To love someone with all you heart and yet they do not understand you. We all have needs. At one time we thought we could be together but one of my needs and their needs conflicted. We are still friends but some days I just want to confess my love ( Read more... ) -
As Requested - A little about me
I make mistakes, enjoy being outside in the sun shine or a warm rain, and usually prefer to be around animals more than humans most of the time. I find it hard to trust most people. Very rarely do I get or take the time to read, even thought I enjoy it. When I do pick up a book the world stops until I put the book down, usually after the last ( Read more... ) -
June 10, 2008
Today was a rough day. My mind not functioning properly. Everything is a blur and I just don't know if I want to try and stay in "reality" or not. I am begining to think that holding up inside myself, even with my mosters, is the better of the two choices ( Read more... ) -
Memories
Memories can be painful and happy at the same time.