here's to the games and bitter ends.
here's tot he nights i've cried myself to sleep.
I will no longer be mislead

a darling friend of mine..
has pin pointed me to a tee.
It kind of feels like someone has just found out my secret.

I hate you for saying he'll come back to me.
I hate you for even bringing him up.
i hate you.
I hate him.
I hate the night mares.
I hate everything right now.
And mostly I hate how I hate everything right now.

in a perfect world, i wouldn't know your name.

you can breathe,
you can breathe now.
you can breathe but the air is running out of you.

i have an apartment.
it's quaint but nice.
i feel sick.
it will never be the same.

i'm exhausted these days.
no amount of sleep
or lack there of ..
is fixing it.

bleh

i wish people would stop telling me how i am supposed to feel.
I feel smothered by everyone elses thoughts and feelings.
i can't be happy and i can't be sad.
if im too happy then i've moved on and it's too quick.
if i'm sad .. i hurt everyone
I have no time to sit and reflect by myself.
perhaps i'm too affraid to sit alone and think.
because if i ( Read more... )

i am disappointed.
i am crushed.
i want to write.
if i write then it might really be over.
why can't people be who they say they are.
why don't i know how to get over this?
I am exhausted.
I can't sleep.
I don't care.
I care too much.
I'm giving up.
this is fucking ridiculous.
I need someone.
Anyone.

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