today was a total reality check for me. i had to go to band 5th hour instead of lunch today, but we finished early so i decided to go to the cafe. at first i wasnt going to, because there were 2 minutes left in the period, but i went. i was talking to josh, and i realized that today was his last day until finals, and i wont see him then. in that ( Read more... )

so im finally updating here is whats happened in the last month ( Read more... )

so heres what will be happening. i am in big trouble at home for bad reasons. i got a c in math and my parents flipped. my computer and ipod priveleges have been revoked. my parents are also searching my computer. if they do, they might find this lj, along with my myspace and email. it sucks and i dont have any underoath or senses fail on cd, so i ( Read more... )

yea so today was ok. school was boring i think i got an A on my chemistry test and we have a student teacher in history. lunch was kickass. brian wasnt there though :( he is the BEST KID EVER. i talked to josh all day and hes so nice. i love him but i know things will never work out so its not even worth trying. ehh, were still good friends though ( Read more... )

yeah today was uberboring. i spent all day on myspace. but now i have 216 friends and 61 comments, as opposed to 151 friends and 44 comments. i also read some good stuff today. sean was online today, but i didnt have the guts to im him. i dunno why though, weve been good friends and ive been really comfortable around him for along time. i think ( Read more... )

i dunno if its just me, but it seems like evryone just fell off the face of the earth today. no one is at home or online or even at shows. i think its cuz they are all at melissas party. i wanted to go so bad. i couldve met jake and had fun and got drunk. but best of all, if i went i wouldve gone with sean. he couldnt give me a ride cuz his band ( Read more... )

yeah, um this is really bad but i am bored as fuck right now. i have been in my room doing nothing for 4 hours straight, so i wrote this in about ten minutes. like i said, this is really shitty, but it is the product of boredom.

( hot boysex coming later )

umm today was ok i guess. the beginnig of the day was fun. outside of chem sarah and i were dancing to the blood brothers, and we made maracas out of sugar and plastic bags. we are fucking idiots, but we have fun. at third hour passing period they played fall out boy instead of the regular shit, so we danced again. sean is still suspended :( i love ( Read more... )

PROBLEM NUMBER ONE
i think i am in love with sean. the thing is, he is one of my best guy friends. aaagh! i dont know what to do. i mean, we fool around a bit and hell kiss me or give me a hug in the halls most times.and sometimes well joke around like "o, i want you so bad" but were just friends. there are 2 issues with this though. 1 is that i ( Read more... )

the beginnig of today was oerfect. i had a great start. school went well, i wasnt pissed at anyone and i got to go home after school. the weather was beautiful and i walked 2 miles home in 70 degree breezy weather listening to the juliana theory...and then my mom was a bitch to me, and i am crying. i also need to figure out how ill get to misa's ( Read more... )