Well it's been almost a year since I've posted last. I really didn't have much to say that wasn't completely negative and I need to change that. In order to do that I'll have to change my life (of course). As I mentioned before, I don't really think of January as the New Year since the solar cycle isn't really complete until March, as is the ( Read more... )

I don't really celebrate the New Year in January anymore so this isn't new to me. I've adopted the practice of observing the pagan new year which is in March, usually around the first day of Spring ( Read more... )

Well things are a little better now. I shouldn't get like that but I do. The Holidays are when I get especially lonely. The people I want to hear from I rarely do and the ones I don't want to deal with are the ones I end up dealing with almost every day. I miss everybody. well on to positive things ( Read more... )

ANd still I don't seem to feel like anyting is worth bothering with. None of my friends seem interested in talking to me and I feel like I"m heading to a dead end where I'm going to crash and burn. I'll be so glad when this year's over, it's been a complete washout, like every other year. I start off optimistic with the best of intentions and ( Read more... )

Well I got my money reimbursed to me from the bank so that's good new. I'm still going to call the investigator and find out how this could have happened. I'm always really careful with my ATM card but now I don't think I want to make any ATM withdrawls at all now. I almost miss the old days when crooks actually had to look you in the eye when ( Read more... )

So, Thursday I check my balance in my checking account to see what checks have cleared and find out my balance is down to 0.89. Imagine my shock at finding out that four extra withdrawls were made over the weekend by some STINKING SON OF A BITCH WHO I'M GONNA KILL IF I EVER FIND OUT WHO HE IS!!!!! Somehow this WORTHLESS WASTE OF SPACE (WHO IS ( Read more... )

A week and a half ago I travelled by bus, one warm Friday evening, to the Forum in Inglewood California to see Mr. Bob Dylan ( Read more... )

Well after years of vaguely promising myself this, I fingally got a new mattress for my bed. Since we got a nice bonus from the Union (retractive pay raise from last year) I thought I'd spend the money and get a real good one. It's similar to the Sealy ones although it's the house brand from Mattress Gallery (didn't want to spend TOO much you know ( Read more... )

Last night I went to see Vashti Bunyan play at the Echo, a small nightclub/bar on Sunset Blvd. in the middle of Echo Park,not very far from where I'd lived when I first moved back to L.A. on my own, 20 years ago! The neighborhood hasn't changed much, still predominantly Mexican with a touch of bohemianism to it, pretty much like I remember although ( Read more... )

All right so it turns out that the biggest mistake was going back there in the first place. I don't even know what I was thinking by returning to that room. Maybe that things have changed? Maybe that everybody would take my side? Maybe I felt responsible somehow and that I had to fix it? I can't fix it. It's beyond my control. I've done all I ( Read more... )