This will be my last LiveJournal entry for a while. I may continue on this later on or find a new place to express myself but since nobody reads this anymore (and who can blame them?) I will close it down for now and leave my entries as they stand, chronicalling five years of my decline and fall, when I thought maybe I had some great things to say ( Read more... )

I'm too negative.

Till Victory (recorded by the Patti Smith Group, lyrics by Patti Smith ( Read more... )

And I still feel the emptiness left by the loss of my Little Egypt. Everybody has been really kind to me offering me support and encouragement. But I feel alone, not alone exactly but that there's a big emptiness inside of me. (How could that be when she was such a little cat? She never got above ten pounds at most) I know I did everything I ( Read more... )

Little Egypt passed away this morning with the aid of the emergency vet. She was 17 years old ( Read more... )

Little Egypt had to back to the emergency pet hospital today. She went to the vet yesterday for a routine checkup and to have one of her glands cleaned out. When I got her home she was walking kind of wobbly, which I first put down to the procedure. As the day went on she was more listless and wobbly and had no appetite. Early this morning I ( Read more... )

Not much to add today. Still fighting negativity and feeling lonely. Well I can't expect everyone to stop their lives for me. I can't be needy and clingy because I've had people be that way with me and it's draining for both sides. It's hard to make new friends, I often find out too late that they weren't really friends at all. I try not to ( Read more... )

Today I'm focusing on live albums. Good live albums give a snapshot of a time and place and give the sense of what a group or performer can do live and onstage. The problem with a lot of live albums is that they're usually thrown hurredly together to satisfy a contractual obligation, or to cover for a lack of new material (such as with the ( Read more... )

Since I've been nothing but negative I thought maybe I'd be better off just posting about things I like (which is why I won't post anything about Los Angeles). Since I love music, but can't play anything, I thought I'd share with whoever is still reading this, my top 100 favorite albums. This may not be as interesting as when Rolling Stone did it ( Read more... )

I try to be positive but I'm always bitterly disappointed. Nothing I do is right. How can I be positive when nothing works?