as my life is changing greatly, I think, so too shall this journal. Throw me an email if you want to know the new one, and I will give you the addy.

this woman is broken now
let this journal be her grave

So here it is ( Read more... )

I built a cave in my room. It's pretty good so far ( Read more... )

So Caitlin broke up with me yesterday ( Read more... )

*sigh ( Read more... )

I hate myself for pressuring her so godamn much. All I can think about and talk about is the same shit, and all it does is lessen my chances in the end ( Read more... )

Finally Friday ( Read more... )

Gah. My stepmom wrote me all worked up because I haven't been in touch much lately. I don't have enough time to fill them in... I have nothing good to tell them. :-( I am going to see dad saturday. That will be nice, I think. I just feel like I don't want to talk about it and I am too full of stuff to say and think to be able to put it into ( Read more... )

So what I am supposed to be doing is feeling ok about me without KK. Not necessarily without her forever and in a difinitive type of way, but rather, regardless of her. For instance, in hopes that we do get back together, eventually we will still be apart for some times, and it is vital that I am capable of taking care of myself and being ok in ( Read more... )

We all still live together, and I think everything will be ok, but we're all pretty busy licking our wounds for now. Caitlin and I are not together, but rather on break to focus on ourselves individually for a while, with hopes of getting back together when ready. (Her choice). I am doing ok- better than before, but lower than usual ( Read more... )