3 new pairs of shoes still didn't help

its taken me long enough but i think i've finally figured everything out. i feel like my life is just falling together. like it was a huge puzzle before with all the pieces mixed up and tossed around wrong side up but slowly they're all being pieced together. and i know that sounds lame & like im trying to be all philosophical and shit but im not. ( Read more... )

i am at school as usual, and as usual i am not studying for midterms, which are next week, i have three of them, all equally difficult ( Read more... )

my heart is racing, i feel like im going to through up, im on the verge of tears.
why do i do this to myself?

so i havn't updated livejournal in like FOREVER. and i think its mostly cause my life really isn't interesting ( Read more... )

today i had a good day. i had school in the morning, and it was very warm outside for the first time in like forevvvver. i then worked out for about an hour, then kaye came over and we ate pizza outside in our bathing suits and tried to get tans. we went to robeks too. after that i quickkkly took a shower got dressed + did my hair + makeup. i went ( Read more... )

i don't understand why i am going through this. this anxiousness/nervousness/worrying seem to just be a part of everyday life now. this fake smile and unability to be happy. these constant tears only a second away from acctually dropping. the worst part is i don't know what this is.

so for a week since last wednesday i have been extremely anxious and nervous for no reason. and completely wired on coffee.
but its okay cause its nothing that a good shopping spree with my favorite jessica and seeing a cute boy can't fix.
weeeeeeeee.
<3

i wanted to update yesturday but i couldn't remember my password to livejournal.
i never thought that would happen.
i am way ready for 2oo4 because two thousand and three mostly sucked the big one.
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my hair is growing, i lost my wallet, i had to cancel everything, someone turned it in, i got it back, it was torn apart, i bought a new one, its exactly the same as the old one, i did homework with fen today, homework was really going to val surf and in n out, i didn't go to the gym after work, im sick of work, school, pierce, i want it to be ( Read more... )