タイトルのコメントはわたしじゃなくて、他の人がした。

最近、友達を一人なくした。原因はなんとなくわかるけど、本心はわからない。

それぞれが思い道りに事が進めば、最高かもしれない。でも、実際はこっちを手にいれたら、あっちをなくしたりして、なかなか全部が全部うまくいったりしない。

何が起こっても、信用するつもりだったけど（信用しあっている前提で）、
相手が完全にシャッターおろしてて、会っても話しかけてきたりはしなくなっちゃて、本当に悲しい。
このままでいいわけないと思うけど、
いろんなイベントが重なってて、どれがきっかけではっきりどうなったかわからないから、
もし、もう一度前みたく友達になれたらと思う反面、
少し不公平だと思っちゃたりもして、
こんなんでも
やっぱり、努力できるところがあったらしたいから、
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So my godmother in Switzerland wrote me email.
She said I have to brush up my German again so I can come home any time soon.

Yep yep... I've been too occupied with English, Japanese and Italian and haven't used German for such a long time... (except when I talk in my sleep?!!) She was renovating the house in St.Gallen and she told me my room is nicer ( Read more... )

So yesterday, went to Andrea's dog and rabbit party.
Daiki needed a ride to Kotaro's concert so I took him there too. I was a bit worried that the dog looked really sad... and I'd never seen him like that before. Man... he became really old... When Andrea told me that her rabbit gained a lot of weight during the dinner last week at a Jass Bar, I ( Read more... )

Went to Jas' party in 'burb. It was free cover, open bar. I got so drunk...

It was fun...

I dont remember what I really wanted to write here...
Oh man I miss my babe.....

I feel like eating Quizno's Steakhouse beef dip....

Last night I fell asleep while I was playing DQ8... this morning, I was surprised to find myself still wearing stupid jeans and t-shirt from yesterday. eww.

I had entire morning free so I watched lecture from Monday that I missed to check on hw. I finished that and then I went over to UIC to play tennis with Eiko. I got there too early so I ( Read more... )

For my 20th birthday, we throw a big party at the apartment on Sheffield where Killian, Marco, Andrew and Eric used to live.

That was last year.

This year, I wanted to throw a party, I wanted to go to a club. But then, I got really lazy and didn't call to make a reservation until Yesterday afternoon. First I had my friend call them buh, after all I ( Read more... )

My alarm went off at 7.30am.
About 30 seconds after, my cell rang.

It was my mom and dad. This is the first time they called on my birthday morning. When they called, Dad just got home from his business trip. He was so loud. I was so happy. They made my birthday for the first time something that is really important. I guess this will stop me from ( Read more... )

Every year, something happens on my birthday and I cry so much being lonely and miserable. I know I shouldn't expect too much,,, I've been trying to keep telling myself but I always can't help it. It's the ONLY day you can think of yourself that you're important...just because it's your birthday ( Read more... )

Alright, today I had time to think.
So I thought it over.

My solution for now is this --- Live this moment and try to make the most of it...

untill I come up with better remedy. It's diffenetely better than wasting my time being worried while I can really enjoy the moment. It's always tough not to think that in the future, I probably have to let go of ( Read more... )