well today is good i love my wife so much. i hope who ever is reading this may think that is expected but i feel gitty today and i think everyone should know. they should also know that i am willing to do whatever it takes to preserve it. to all extremes so i hope everyone knows that.

you know when you know you fucked up. it always seems like there is some way out in this case there is not and it sucks. it almost seems as though asking for forgivness is the wrong thing, like it isn't fair to her. i know i will do better than ever she will know i love her Jammie I LOVE YOU. i will show you with everything i do believe me or don't ( Read more... )

so yes i was on some mission all day and it was no fun i was stuck in a hot truck with no free room with all of this gear on. on a bumpy road. it was dusty, and it sucked. then after six hours of that shit i got to walk through a awful town with a hundred lbs on my back how fucking fun ( Read more... )

last night was fun. i found someone much like me but it seems that he is better at it. this guy was amazing if i was a chick i would do him. baut after i hung out at the garage and played more stupid indie rock song than i ever thought i could ever knnow. i went and ate mid night chow which is funny because it opens at 2300 ( Read more... )

well today was going great. keyword was some how when they told me that i has pulling yet another allnighter i suddenly felt like shit. it is not because i wanted to sleep, oh that is not it. i enjoy my time i like to listen to music god forbid watch a movie. oh well

well i have already posted today but something happend that made me smile after i wasn't mad anymore ( Read more... )

well lets see i went to the dentist 2 days ago and what i thought was a rutine check ended up being alot of unneeded pain. well they went to pull a wisdom toooth the what suspect to be a to exstracter which i assume to be more like a blunt screw driver than anything you would immagine to be a dental tool well anyways the torcher tool slipped and ( Read more... )

well my mission was a success i had a great time. i was very amused by the childrens anticks and it is always nice to see a little bit of innocence in this hostile atmosphere. but it really gave me a feeling of deja vu. i do truly love my job i just wish i could do it more. i miss my wife dearly. i miss allot of things but it has only just begun.

well today is going to be ok . i have a mission tommorow and that is good. there is nothing i like better than actually doing my job. imagine you read about how to do something. then you talk about how to do it. than you get a class on how to do it. well after all that it is always nice just to do it ( Read more... )

hey tina thank you for the message and of course it was nice to here from miss emily. i apprieciate all the support i can get ( Read more... )