its been a while
im still bored
wondering what i should do
job wise mostly
i can't stand this job anymore
its hard when you know you could run the place without the
fucking supervisor
and do a better job at it too
blah

filled
over flowing
a smile, a wink , a nod
i know
that feeling from somewhere
a feeling i haven't had in a long time
content
almost happy (almost)
still stuck but i know i can make the waves in the water that i need...

words spill from my over filled spinning dizzy head
nonsense
yet i feel okay
except that i wanna kill everyone i work with
i want to do everything and nothing at once
i'm content but i feel like im spinning out of control (haha)
not in a bad way...
i love that word
spinning
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I sit unfaded ( Read more... )

i just had the most random conversation with this guy at work.. hes one of the maintence guys... hes so fucking funny.. we started talking about drinking then he metioned pot.. im like cool... the hes like yeah and i blow lines occationally.. hehehe i guess its only funny if you knew who this guy is.. yeha so that was pointless ( Read more... )

missing pieces ( Read more... )

so today is my birthday... god it sucks... im stuck working...i hate birthdays.. no one remebered anyway... welll almost no one ( Read more... )

that kid i asked out for drinks has completly ignored me for the past 2 weeks and today was the first time ive run into him and i get total attitude... WTF... all i wanted to do was grab a beer down the street but hey FUCK HIM.. am i right??? huh??? HUH? Yeah thought so... :)

in work on the verge of tears. every song makes me think of him. i can't stand this. i figured id be kinda okay now but it hasn't changed. i sill miss him and i still love him. truthfully, i don't want to live without him. i can't go one hour without thinking about his face. i don't know what to do. hes so fucking confusing. he'll spend like 4 days ( Read more... )

fallen
bottom driven
lost
dead to everything that matters
i still see your face when i close my eyes
i can't shut you out
you pierce my thoughts with blow gun accuracy
you're eyes haunt my dreams
i can't escape how i feel
my words sizzle into nothingness
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