now i won't have to wonder.

some how, some way, we can make this work.

i hope that down the road you still want to.

i think that i have finally found some hope in this whole mess. and i could not be happier about that one tiny shred of hope. it's still uncertain, but i'm more comfortable with that now.

my aunt being in town unexpectedly has helped ( Read more... )

 well today would be like the last day to change my mind and put my deposit somewhere else.

and the funny thing is if it weren't so uncertain, i'd totally do it. nothing in life is ever really certain though... so it would almost make sense to put my faith into something so uncertain... like if the one thing in life you can count on is uncertainty, ( Read more... )

lmfao. guys last night was so amazing. thank you SOOO so much for inviting me ( Read more... )

"Don't You Dare"

Dark cloud moving in
Just one fall of rain
Would wash away
Wash away the pain

Just one ray of sun, to warm my skin
Rid me of the cold you’re drowning

I could say that I don't care
But the the truth is I'd follow you anywhere
I've been waiting such a long, long time
Don't you dare change your mind

Seems so close to me but still beyond my reach ( Read more... )

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i hate the way shit turns out.

somebody hurry up and invent time travel. so i can fuckin teleport as far away from my life as it gets.

BEAM ME UP SCOTTY!

come on!!! any day now!

......still waiting.

"what the fuckity fuck did you two fucks fuckin fuck fuck---FUUUUUUCK!"

haha boondock saints... that's kind of how i feel though. idk why. lol.

so i was all excited for spring break ( Read more... )

hello again
old friend
my head
i'm back
cuz i've
nowhere else
to go
and you
my friend
my crazy head
are the only
place i know
so please
don't be sad
that i've been gone
so long
for i'm back
now that things
are all so
wrong
and i fear
you've little
to fear
for i could
be here
a long
long
time

i'm trying really hard not to be annoyed. i'm trying to maintain this equilibrium of patience mixed with apathy--but i'm finding this to be very difficult and i seem to be unsuccessful as of yet. but i'm going to keep trying. i'm determined to master this--because once i do, none of this stupid bullshit will get on my nerves and i will be a much ( Read more... )

i think i should  stop watching movies

they make me emo.

sometimes, i'm still a little delusional. hah.

i wish that there were more episodes of lost to throw myself into. that made me a good kind of emo. hahaha, the distracted kind.