So... where to begin? About 2 months ago, I told John everything that was on my mind. As a result, he is no longer speaking to me. The father of my child is using the silent treatment. I wonder if he thinks that I will stop bugging him about taking responsibility as a father if he just ignores me. Ok... have we met?! I am not the type of gal that ( Read more... )

So I read part of my last journal entry. I was afraid that my husband was going to leave me. Well, it was a valid fear. John and I split up in September of last year. We were divorced effective March 30. Sucks. Long story short, he cheated on me. He didnt sleep with this tramp until after we had split up, but he was telling her that he was in love ( Read more... )

Why is it that after nearly 6 years with my husband, I am so completely insecure and am afraid that he will leave me, or that he will find someone better? Why do I feel so threatened by the women that he knows an by the fact that I know that he is a desirable man ( Read more... )

Every 6 months or so I get really burnt out on work. There are many symptoms of this. The first being mild to extreme exhaustion, even though I am getting as much sleep as I normally do. The next being irritability. The third, I begin dreaming about work... and that makes me not want to go. And I am at the point where all of these are/ have taken ( Read more... )

It certainly has been a long time since I updated my LJ. Last I read, I was preggo with Eileen. Now, Eileen is going to be 3 in December. Good times, yes? John and I have been together for over 4 and a half years and I am still so very happy. I have been working at GEICO for over 2 years now and I love it. I am going to retire from this place. I am ( Read more... )

I am having trouble getting to sleep. John is out with a friend of his and I just have trouble getting to sleep if there is no one home. I get all lonely and such. *sigh* This sucks so much ass.

I started my new job at the Wal Mart Portrait Studio. Today was really boring because I didnt do much. There were 3 customers in the 9 hours that I was there... And I wore these shoes that hurt my feet really badly. It wasnt a bad day because I got to get out of the house and I got paid to do it. It was just long. When I dont work, I sleep til noon ( Read more... )

I have been so unbelievably moody for the past couple of weeks. Seriously... It takes something so small to set me off and it takes practically nothing to make me cry. It really sucks. I have an excuse, but that doesnt change the fact that it truly sucks. The effects of pregnancy are starting to take their toll physically too... Its starting to get ( Read more... )

We all know that I dont have a job... And I am looking for a new one at the moment and I am optimistic about the search ( Read more... )

Sometimes it is nice to have all the time you need to sort through things, even if all of this time isnt by choise, but because of things that happen that put a damper on life ( Read more... )