Just when I think I'm getting my life somewhat on track, something completely unexpected comes and derails everything. However, I've decided to not dwell on it too badly and just take care of things as they come. Easier said than done...But, it's all I can do.

"We have assigned a 70% evaluation for you major depressive disorder based on ( Read more... )

I realized today that I harbor quite a bit of jealously towards people that I know that have spouses and children. Mainly people I went to school with and the such. It really hammers in the fact that for the last 6 years, my personal life has been in stasis. I have been stunted socially and mentally by the military. I suppose it's just another ( Read more... )

"...You make it so real...I don't need your love to disconnect ( Read more... )

"...Just a fading, fucking reminder of who I used to be..."I'm tired of the voices. I'm tired of the visions, the memories. I'm tired of being broken and not fully knowing what's real and what's not. I'm just tired. I can't seem to get my old life out of my head. I close my eyes and I'm there again. When I open them again, sometimes I'm not fully ( Read more... )

You've got your ball ( Read more... )

Outside the cars are beeping out a song just in your honor. And though they do not know it, all mankind are now your brothers. And thus the cathedral had spoken, wishing well to all us sinners, and with a psalm, drew silent til next year's big human winner...

Hallelujah.

No one laughs at God in a hospital ( Read more... )

"...Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth. I have to go...I have to go ( Read more... )

Why do I do this to myself? I just can't seem to let go...

I dreamed of you last night, and I woke up smiling.

Until I realized it was only a dream....