i can still smell your scent. it's comforting. it's mixed with mine, and it feels like home again.

it aches and aches and aches in my muscles. all my organs are failing. my body can't function normally. well, depending on what you call normal. i guess i just don't understand how i can get sick so many times. everything is breaking down. when getting through each hour becomes a task i don't understand why this is so difficult for me. i get so ( Read more... )

freakin stab me in the eyeball.

the drummer, big andy i call him, is like five times my size and our conversation consisted of him talking about how small i am and me talking about how much of a giant he is. and then he drew on my hand and wrote something i can't read. went there with alex and we sat on the stage for a bit. rose is amazing i want to steal her vocal chords. hung ( Read more... )

PAAAA-AAAA-AAAIII-NNNTTSSSSSSS!!!!! fuck yeah, mother fucker. finally i'll have some friends over the break! haHA! mrs. mars black and mr. cobalt blue among the rest of their friends. rawr. i've never had a nice paint set before. i suck at painting, but i love it so much. i just have weird ideas that im glad i'll finally have somewhere to put them ( Read more... )

haven't been on the internet in a while. i thought i missed it. but i really don't. i turned on the tv today and for some reason i just now realized how much i truly passionately hate tv. except for random movies and the history or discovery channel at times. not to mention opb's frontline. but of course that's not really tv. the commercials make ( Read more... )

Blaine moved from 2nd in the nation for public forum debate to 8th. still amazing though. out of 700 college senior debaters. im proud of him. for a while he was 2nd. that's just amazing to me. he's a smart kid. makes me want to be better at public debate. he's going to give me lessons. =). worked a lot in the past two days, back to back. it's nice ( Read more... )

as school inches closer, i want to hide more and more. i get stressed out even if i don't have to do anything. ehhh, sick. i want it to be sunny out. it was so nice when it was....oh well. mail is here. maybe we got some new netflix movies. nope, got a letter from a best friend i haven't talked to in a year or more. it's nice to know i still have ( Read more... )

i haven't been this anxious and excited to see someone in a long time.