Okay so I've had numerous requests to update my journal... I don't know why it's not like I have something special to say.

Please Note
If you're reading this, it's because I'm getting rid of the drama in my life

SO I just got home from seeing my good friends in VooDoo Blue and I feel so good. Things have been great and I feel so happy. it's like I just found myself again. I played guitar last night and it was after I had alot to drink... it felt awesome. well going to finish munching my Jalapeno Chips and lay down with my baby..

So I found out I don't listen very well, and that everything has been my fault for the fast 2 months(as far as I know it's been about 2 - 3 months) and I just want to make it better but this goes back to the argument we has many times. If you have a problem don't drop hints, please just tell me. I'm not going to get mad I just want you to tell me ( Read more... )

So here I sit in my apartment. Smoking again...oh well what can I say I broke! Things are better though I actually have money in my pocket and I finally got the tattoo I wanted for so long ( Read more... )

I was told by someone that I should update my journal. So here I am getting some shit off my back. So yeah I quit smoking so that's cool! I really want one right about now because of the bullshit happening right now. The stress is almost unbarable. I have to worry about not getting kicked out of my apartment and I have to wait for my paychecks ( Read more... )

"Drowning You In Fear ( Read more... )

I HATE COKE!!!

So this is the first post in forever, and I just needed to get a lot of stuff off my chest. I hate the fact that I've been blinded for almost a year because I wanted to make someone happy. It took a lot of courage to accept things that I do as a habit that are wrong. I'm not Blaming it on my feelings I'm blaming it on people that are fucking ( Read more... )

Whoa... I didn't know how empty I could feel. This is terrible, but I know that she just wants her space and I'm going to give that to her. I just hope she knows that I miss her... I also need to stop worryinng about her so much, she's a big girl and she can take care of herself just fine. Anyways I'm just going to chill out till she calls me or ( Read more... )

I fucked up again... I wish i never soke those words. I've missed her and cried for her everyday. We are suppose to go out tomorrow but it doesn't look like she really wants to see me and I feel horrible... I didn't mean for it to end i just wanted her to calm down and have fun, you know I would still love to be with her night and day no matter ( Read more... )