Trust is the key ingredient with a relationship.... and appearently it was only one sided. I'm sorry, I'm truly sorry i had to do it! I can't stop crying. but if there is no trust then where would we end up? I just don't know what to do anymore... in time I will heal and so will you and then maybe we can see eachother again. I'M SORRY :(

Lately I've been tired and everyone thinks I'm depressed. Why? that's all i ask...Why? I have a job that I would like to keep and I work my ass off to keep it and try satisfying everyone around me at the same time. It's hard and i don't know what to do cause I'm getting so much grief from this like it's my fault, now I'm depressed because I love ( Read more... )

"couldn't believe how easy it was, put the gun in front of his face, baaannggg, so much blood for such a tiny little hole, problems do have solutions you know, a life time of fucking things up fixed, in one determined flash.... Everythings blue in this world, a little fuzzy, spinning out of my head"

That's right I'm going to go see NIN Live!!!

So I am at work doing nothing and just waiting for the NIN tickets to go on sale! Ashley's here with me and she is nervous to be here, but i think she's alright! Well off to the ticket site i go. (WOOOSH)

Today was extremely weird....I got up in the morning and was on my way to work and I heard on the radio that they were giving away an Oscar package (NOOOO, not oscar's package) anyways...I decided I'd call in because I've never won anything so I guess I'd give it a shot. Well to my surprize I got in, then i answered the question right so i WON ( Read more... )

And it's so true :D ( Read more... )

That's it...I've had it...no one can die anymore! No one...I'm surrounded by death and I'm getting sick of it!! LIVE EVERYONE, LIVE!!!

Well....don't know what to say really...one of those days where i go to sleep angry and then wake up numb. Weird feeling but I guess I'm just being stupid and I over react for just about everything, but oh well. Today is our 9 month annaversary and i hope everything goes okay today, but I can't expect everything to be perfect all the time so, eh ( Read more... )

everything is changing! I am so happy with the way things are going right now. I'm starting out rough but i know it will get better. Last night I had so much fun with Ashley! I picked her up and we went to see her dad for a very long time is what it felt like just talkin and stuff which was fun like always :) then we decided to go see a movie ( Read more... )

Why can't I be happy with life? Why is life so tough for everybody? If i felt the way I did in High School the way I did now, I would have just quit this fucking deal all together because it's hard for me. That's it I'm not going to give a shit about anything anymore. I'm gonna be the most care free guy in the whole god damn world! I'm just ( Read more... )