he hates me. i deserve it. i can't call anymore. times are different. i wait for him to call me. he still calls me. but why? i feel i do nothing for him anymore. he will never look at me the same way. i have failed him. i have failed myself. the one perfect love torn away. i suck. i can't do anything right. i am in trouble with the ( Read more... )

Just wanted to say you make it so hard to leave.  I hope you don't mean what you said about this all only happening because I am leaving.  That was a knife to the heart.  I really hope we stay at least friends.  I will be an hour away and can still easily visit.  I will miss our talks...even as empty or awkward as they were at times.  Maybe they ( Read more... )

I love you ( Read more... )

I DIE WITHOUT YOU

So I got sick today from what else?... pizza hut that I ate last night and got sent home. It's been nice being home and not at work all the time (yesterday we were on call for wind half the day) but at the same time my check is going to suck. Oh well I guess. Things are going much better with my relationship. Not going to go into too much ( Read more... )

My favorite song...and also a description of exactly how I feel right now ( Read more... )

I just have to say don't ever take advantage of anything you have...because when it's in the process of leaving you, you may realize you are losing the best thing that has ever happened to you. Okay, I'm going to go disappear from Sandusky forever...I wish.

Uggh...Today does not even feel like a birthday. Visiting Michigan did not turn out to be what I thought it would be. I hate staying at my parents house because I get allergic and all I do is sneeze. It sounds like not a huge deal, but I literally can't sleep. I don't have a car or a license so my visiting people is limited. I love my family ( Read more... )

i don't think i'm going to post on here anymore b/c absolutely no one (except for Liz-I love you) posts a comment. Which, comments are the whole point of the site, really. So everyone else here, have fun with your 8 comments for every post...i guess it just doesn't work for me.

So...I went to court yesterday...good news is I have no probation (thank God) but the bad news is my licence is suspended for 60 days. They didn't even give me work privileges. That means I will have to carpool everywhere all summer long. I was going to still drive to Cedar Point to go to work, taking a chance that police would not pull me over ( Read more... )