I have a conflict with teaching in the fall ( Read more... )

I finished teaching for the summer a few weeks ago, so I have too much free time. I should be studying, but it seems too difficult for me. Part of me feels I should be making money to cut into the tremendous amount of money I lost in this house. It breaks my heart when I think of all the stuff I haven't bought to save my money and then lose it all ( Read more... )

I am not good at anything. I am physically and emotionally weak. I can barely string together two sentences in public. I have zero creativity.

"if you are under 5'11 I will not respond sorry, if you don't send a pic or myspace thingy I won't send one either"

CL

"compassionate vegetarian grad student... - 27 ( Read more... )

diamanda galas
witch hunt
huasipungo
lightning bolt
monotract
lightning bolt
voetsek

alone alone alone alone

"Borbetomagus plus Japan's Masonna and Merzbow performed in the tiny closet that was the Alterknit, and it made a big impression on me. Here, noise manifested itself in severe and physical ways: Borbetomagus made the small room's floor rattle, Masonna bounced off walls like a pingpong ball while attacking the effects pedals his voice went through ( Read more... )

when I help EVERYONE and no one ever does anything for me.
when no one responds to my ads, or answers when i respond to them.
when female friends tell me they don't know any women so i won't bother them about finding someone.
when everyone else dates more than me
when no one trusts me

tell me how i am supposed to feel,
because I feel like dying.

A while ago I was talking to a friend or maybe former friend and in the conversation it came up that even though I have had a horrible social life, I have been lucky to always have financial security. Well now that has all collapsed. I will NEVER have financial security again. At a time in life, approaching 30 when people are "supposed" to be in a ( Read more... )

noise show tonight. I am going to too many show ( Read more... )