So...I'm completely contemplating blowing off the fashion parties tonight so that I can snuggle up on the couch and watch movies. Is that so wrong? I'm over it...my liver is over it...I'm over the rain. I have the day off anyways, so we'll see how I feel later ( Read more... )

The Three of Swords card suggests that dwelling on past pain, heartbreak or loss leaves you vulnerable to further attack or reopens old wounds. It can ultimately consume you, particularly if it is your own heart that has betrayed you. Thoughts of getting even will make things worse. Taking each betrayal or loss too personally becomes a self- ( Read more... )

This
a diagnosis unreceived
questions of emptiness
down darker
becoming faster
and slower
stops
possibilities of new beginnings
choked by doubt
a new life
love and something more
my pen shaking
body rattling
it won't stop
taking over
swallowing me entirely
changing my destiny
to every beginning
there is an end

...not working. Bryant Park was game over for me today. Fuck fashion...it's raining. Geez, it's difficult being such an indemand socialite...haha...riiiiight ( Read more... )

So....beacause my life is just one ironic coincidental twist after another ( Read more... )

The Six of Swords card reversed suggests that you might be afraid to take a chance on love after rejection, loss or defeat, but sticking close to home or making excuses may only be alienating you from someone who could serve as a guide or friend. You may not be ready to take the next step, but this could be a warning that you're ruining your own ( Read more... )

me
inside
this demon that devours
it wants to wreck havoc
I can't tell it to stop
me
inside
screaming until I cave
selfishly I hammer
nails into my own coffin
then ask
how did I get here?
speaking for me
acting out malicious games of deceit
laughing at my failures
me
inside
I have to learn how to say no
and when to let go
me
inside

to know myself ( Read more... )

I run by the hope ( Read more... )

...but I suddenly feel rejuvinated. I'm tired of dwelling. I'm tired of worrying. I'm tired off trying to figure things out. I just want to live my own life, day to day, like I want to live it. I don't give a FUCK what you think about me ( Read more... )