"I can't come to the phone now, so if, well, actually, I CAN come to the phone now, I mean, like, I'm at the phone NOW, recording this message, but I'm doing this NOW, while you're listening to it LATER, except for you I guess it's NOW, like, when you're listening to it... I mean, like, wait, gosh. This is so confusing!"

I always ALWAYS thought of the future in a negative way. Something about it just seemed so small, and unimaginable. I felt like here I was at an age in my life where I don't have to worry about health, I don't have to worry much about money, and I get to have a lot of fun. Then I looked to the future, and all I saw were things like a 9-5 job, 5 ( Read more... )

How did I become this person? My whole life seems to have drifted in a strange direction in the last six months. It's very strange, and I wonder why I'd do that to myself. It's like I thought I could fool my own mind, but it's not working very well, because that honest part of me keeps nagging inside. You can't trick your own soul ( Read more... )

This is going to be an interesting and exciting weekend - much better than any in recent memory. Tonight I'll be hanging out at Sam's with my crew from school, and then headin' out on the town, probably for just a litte while. A girl named Rachael is coming along, and I have a pretty hard time getting a read on her. I only met her once, at Chris' ( Read more... )

I've been in a strangely good mood the last two days; things haven't really been bothering me. It doesn't happen often, but every now and then I find myself in one of these moods. Usually lasts a few days, and I love it. The funny thing is, it usually happens immediately following something bad... as in, I get depressed, and then I bounce back ( Read more... )

You just run into people! You go walking down the street, and you see somebody. That just can't happen much out where I live... I love it here.

I found out tonight that I was totally wrong about something, and when I realized the truth, I felt a thousand times better about things. It's sort of like a huge load had been taken off, because now I didn't have to feel that guilt. Now I know that it wasn't my "fault", it was just circumstances, and that makes it better.

Well, there wasn't much to this last weekend. By the time I left work on Friday I was feeling like a sack of crap. I went home, had a nap, and felt even worse. So, I didn't even consider plans on Friday night, I just took it easy ( Read more... )

Next downtown trip: Friday June 23.

Come on... you know you want to!

Now that the location of my apartment is settled, and I've paid my deposit, I'm on to thinking about what I'm going to need for in the apartment. I already had EVERYTHING one could need for a kitchen from when my grandfather died. I also have everything you could need for a bathroom, and a linen closet. So mainly, what I needed was furniture ( Read more... )