read david's journal. i dont feel like explaining why we're leving. it's too depressing. i should have never come back. even better, i should have killed myself and not just tried to. that's the problem with me. i never finnish what i start ( Read more... )

back to skool in T-6 days. maybe. i havent decided if i'm gonna go or not ( Read more... )

everybody's so quiet here. no one posts. no one replies to posts. there's nothing to do. i dont feel like using capital letters.

david goes back to school on monday. i dont go for another week.

wonder if he's mad

but i dont care

hmmm

I...

love erin

dont hate david

am going on a road trip

am going to start a new life

am growing up

am growing stronger

am starting off new

am matt ballinger.

Any questions?

Why does David hate me? What did I ever do to him ( Read more... )

OK, so Lea's here. She and Jesse had some kind of big fight. Or something. David was sketchy on the details. But now she's here. Cause Greg threw her out of Mandy's ( Read more... )

Back
and alive
Sick
but revived

Lost
but not alone
listening
to the drone

Thought I would stop and stay a while
Didn't guess life would be so vile

But when I was floating up above
I looked at you and thought of love.

Thanks, Erin, for being there.

Goodnight

"...In a little while from now
If I'm not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top
Will throw myself off..."

"...In a little while from now
If I'm not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top
Will throw myself off..."

Well, I broke my vow. It's been 2 days since I wrote. Hmmm. Not much to update, however. I'm kinda feeling down. Erin and I haven't had a real conversation since she got back, plus David's mad at me for this and that. Whatever. I don't really care.