So it so fucking is

HAPPY XMAS PEOPLE AND HAVE A GREAT NEW YEAR.........I PLAN EITHIER TO LIVE 2006 OUT OR DIE IN A DRUG HAZE

coooooooooooooooolio

Matt x

Basically at the start of the year i set out a plan to start a band i'd tried to in my two previous years to do this and its failed........well the short but fanciful observer paradox ( Read more... )

I feel fat for the fact i am fat.......even if i don't really look fat i bet my chorestal is high simply because i eat that much shite, I'm smoking like a fucking chinny at the moment and the only thing to bring me happiness on sunday has sorta become a false dawn by monday well thats what i'm guessing.... maybe not ( Read more... )

Been Sleeping or just lying in bed too much recently, and its got me thinking about my future and my present and much about my past ( Read more... )

Just want to get back to bournemouth, i fancy a good night out with aimee getting pissed or summit hehe.......or just starting these new freindships/relationships i have lined up.........its just really so irratating being here ( Read more... )

So not to worry, i was at the end of a vicious cycle i couldn't see how i could possible cheer up.....i decided a walk maybe would work ( Read more... )

I thought i dreamt i killed myself, i woke up this morning thinking is this the afterlife what a fucking waste............

Then i realised i had taken 14 pills without noticing, i am utterly scared i am breaking down, i'm slicing my arm constantly......

i don't know what to do.......

I feel kinda bitter, upset down and i can't really awaken anything exciting in my life. No one seems to talk to me or anything........i miss having someone or something to look forward to ( Read more... )

I've spent a daytime ( Read more... )

3-0 down at half time i felt like going home and going to sleep, however persuaded to stay i decided to just hope and pray ( Read more... )