Well, slept the entire sunday away. I feel odd to have done that but grateful that I had the time to do it. Today, I feel kind of numb and a little shell-shocked. I am taking a few days way from men. Allow myself some time to regroup and center myself ( Read more... )

Today was quite a painful experience. After getting Richard's phone call (weak sorry bastard) I went to have brunch with my friend Robert and his friends. The food was delicious; but I spent the meal on the verge of tears. They were cool about it. Thanks guys ( Read more... )

the fucking sheets haven't even cooled, when Richard called me ( Read more... )

It is Sunday morning and I am really tired and happy. Let me tell you about the date ( Read more... )

I got an email form Dave today. He tracked down my live journal and is reading it. I am not sure how to feel about that. Part of me is okay with it and part of me feels so vulnerable and exposed. He suggested I lock him out of my journal; but I won't do that. Anyone who wants to read can read. Besides, I try and be honest ( Read more... )

Today at work, I took the opportunity to offer Richard a 'focus massage.' That is a 35minute massage that focuses on one area of the body....minds out of the gutter people, he chose his shoulder, back and neck. I gave up my break to work on him (big of me wasn't it...) It was really wonderful. When I was massaging his neck, I was so taken with ( Read more... )

Nothing much to report other than I am getting very anxious about my upcoming Date on Saturday. I was kind of freaking earlier about it--you know the 'I'm not good enough" bullshit. I'm playing mindgames in my own head over Richard and this date. I keep losing track of the fact that Richard pursued me first; Richard gave me his number when we ( Read more... )

Okay, here it is ( Read more... )

Waaaaaay too much has happened ( Read more... )

Y'all may wonder why I update sporadically. My computer is having problems and sometimes when I come here to write it causes my computer to crash. Apparently, not today ( Read more... )