Sad Nights

[mattlover]

Just so you all know lately I have not been having the best nights! I feel like everything is going wrong. I know that God is here and I pray to him, but I feel kinda like he is letting it happen. I tried to write down how I was feeling last night and tonight in my journal and I am going to put those journal entries in here so that for those of

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Hey kid

[anonymous]

awww tanya i love you soooooooooo much and i kno im not matt or kayla or courtney (even tho, well, ill say no more), or erika but kno that im always always here for you no matter what. im so excited to go 2 formal w/ u and for sacramento and it will get you away from all thats happening... not running away but giving yourself time to think about it without being plunged into it. i love spending as much time w/ u as i do and we have so much fun together. you're my best friend and you've always been there for me, even when im being stupid over a game i didnt play in so i hope u kno that im always here for you- noon, midnight, winter, and even summer :). im absolutely positive that things will get better but until they do, im just a block away. and even once they do, im still here.

o yea- Ling-Ling forgot her bling-bling

LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!
Hannah

Re: Hey kid

[mattlover]

I love you too kid thanx and I I know Ling Ling forgot her bling bling lol I tried to bring it to her with the hydrolix on my car!

Oh man! I love you!

[iamsoccerqueen]

Tanya, you are amazing. You have such courage to post all of that somewhere where anyone can look at it! It's awesome because you never know who's going to read it and be touched by it. I want to let you know a couple of things: one is that I'm always always here for you, and my phone is on at any time in the night, you can call me ANYTIME. 3 in the morning, it doesn't matter, call me! You have so much going on right now my dear, I don't want you to worry about me. That is why I don't lay my problems to you, because you don't need anymore worries or weights on your back than you already have. I will also let you know at BS what is really going on. But please don't worry for me, that God's job, not mine or yours. Lastly love, there is not enough room in this reply board to encourage you in the ways you need. This is why I'm here, for you. I'd really like to meet with you one on one and help you talk this all out if it's something you'd be interested in or comfortable with. In the meantime, my post tells how I'm dealing with a

I love you!

[jesusfreakk18]

Tanya I love you so much ,and while this pain sucks, I'm glad that we share alot of it, because its great that I have you to talk. Now that this week I've noticed we've gotten like 20times closer and that means so much to me. You mean so much to me you'll never even know. I love you girl!
-k

AWW POOR TANZ!

[celestey]

dude tanz! i hope you feel better. ive known matt for a long long time and ive never thought he would ever get a gf. but i realized from ur post that hes a REALLY good bf. i hope you feel better. ive heard things fromu and him about u 2 and i 2 seem to be sooo happy with eachother. i hope things get better and whoever wrote b4 me is right... u do have a lot or courage to post that on something that just ne one can read. Don worry tho ur just in a pit and cant get out but once u get out everything will be good and ur life will b PERFECT! esp with matt.. haha i just sounded like a miss cleo lady. but ya dont worry about the 5th wheel thing. that was a meaning full thing that he said and i know it hit u deep, it would hit me if someone said that 2 me but the only time you could have really tal.ked to him was after the game. dont feel bad for not talking to him just look in the good way and pray to God. he will help you out. if you need someone to talk to call me 227-5597 or just call me we needa hang out!

Re: AWW POOR TANZ!

[mattlover]

hey CiCi,
I love you sooo much! thanx for respondin to my post i love u girl and we do need to hang out...call me 359-5545. O and I kno matt got a girlfriend...me!