friends only journal starts now.

i thought we might actually be able to be friends, but not if she's going to play little jealous games. fuck this. atleast i had enough respect to KEEP IT OFF THE INTERNET.

christ...

i haven't been able to find anyone to come with me which kind of sucks, but oh well. i'm going to drive fast and listen to loud music. that will be fun as it is a beautiful day outside ( Read more... )

there's nothing like 10 hours sleep, a beautiful sunny morning, and a long hot bath to make you feel so much better.

i don't like myself very much right now.

i know there's questions i shouldn't ask. just 'cause she asks them doesn't make it okay for me to and no matter how much i want one, i don't deserve an answer.

mental note* stay out of her business.

a bunch of rum, mango concentrate, ice, coconut milk, a blender, and a valium.

last night, on the ferry a kid had a full on seizure in front of me--foaming at the mouth and everything. everyone else there just kind of stood and looked at him. i did that for about ten seconds and than thought, "gee... maybe someone capable of more then saying, 'stick a wallet down his mouth' would be helpful", so i ran and got a nurse. ( Read more... )

i really wish i was there right now. i used to spend weeks there when i was younger riding horses in the desert. specifically there's a sort of small mountain called vulcher's peak. i climbed it once. from the top you can look out over hundreds of kilometres of desert and stone. very beautiful. last time i was there i was 18. i sat on the ( Read more... )

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