nice guys finish last .... you never realize how true this saying is until you've been living it for a lifetime. so why am i still trying to run a losing race?? maybe i should just be an asshole who doesnt give a rats ass about anybody but himself. that seems to be whats popular with the ladies these days.

i need a hug

Matt Francis Mccormick's Aliases

Your movie star name: Beer Bob

Your fashion designer name is Matt Amsterdam

Your socialite name is Spanky Compton

Your fly girl / guy name is M Mcc

Your detective name is Horny Toad Crapville

Your barfly name is Dick Whiskey

Your soap opera name is Francis Brook Drive

Your rock star name is Cocaine Two ( Read more... )

im always hearing the same line ... you'll find somebody. theres somebody out there for everybody right?? well that dont make a shit of difference if i cant keep it together long enough to find that mysterious lady who's been hiding from me my entire life. i dont know what to do with myself anymore....

do you think there really is any meaning beneath the neverending layers of bullshit?

i wish i could have someboy to talk to right now
i just dont feel close enough to anybody to share my problems with them
i guess ill just swallow this whole and hope that i dont choke

blah
these past few days have sucked so bad
every moment i spend alone wears me down just a little bit more
i miss having somebody so special to share my spare time with
i need somebody to talk to right now .. but theres nobody here
i guess these words will just have to go unspoken
ehhh ... im done with this stupid journal shit .. it never helps

this place is so fucked up
its wearing down on my soul
i need out
i need to go someplace away from all this
i dont have too much left here for me
and joining the military seems like a good choice now that i dont
maybe im just running away from whats wrong .. but thats all i can really do at this point

i feel like such a rejected outcast right now ( Read more... )

i've got a purple cap and gown
up close those things look really ridiculous
stupid gay ass traditions
FUCK TRADITION