yea well its a new year.. and im tired of this one.. so i got a new journal user name. everything else is still the same i just dont like the username anymore lol. so from now on its

dashboard9

like you all read it anyway lol

thanks for all the advice ppl who commented. it helped out alot. probly more then you know. but what i really want to do is talk with her about it and say some things and tell her what i think, if shes ready to talk about it. i still probly wont be writing in here for a while anyway. beisdes, all it is are quizzes and shit. but yea for now i just ( Read more... )

if everything was "fine" i wouldnt have written what i did..
but i decided to take a break from this journal for a while. maybe things will get better soon.

i just have a few closing things to say about this past week and a half and im done with it forever. i was just wondering what happened.. why i got treated the way i did. was i too good to you? i wanted to give you nothing but the best. well i hope that whoever you encounter in the future is better to you then i was. its what i want you to have. ( Read more... )

umm yea well i had a good weekend.. on friday i didnt do nething really i worked out and played guitar.. fun stuff. then saturday i drove josh out to his tryouts thing. all the way out to 16 and john r.. to get a flat tire in the church parking lot. so i change that all by myself. my dad shows up just as im puttin the tire on. well yea umm saturday ( Read more... )

"this is a song about talkin to the person you haven't even met yet. maybe there rollin around in the hay with someone else but theyre not as good as youll be, you just gotta wait your turn. hes out there shes out there, theyre just learning what to contrast you against."

-John Mayer

man i am messed up. i really need help. i dont know what i want anymore. no i take that back. i know what i want.. but its not whats good for me. so i gotta try to move on. its not an easy thing to do ( Read more... )

Can't you see that i wanna be there with open arms ( Read more... )

Dear Journal ( Read more... )

1. My name ( Read more... )