I thought about dropping out last August and September.  I was hating the program and then everything else went wrong.  Somehow I stayed in.  It was only a year.  Now it's only 2 months.  I dont' want it.  I don't want to do my thesis.  It'd be nice to get my masters.  It'd be practical.  It'd be logical.  But I don't want  it.  All I want to do is ( Read more... )

Since the entire world except me apparently knows it, Levi and April were dating.  And last night he dumped her.  To my knowledge, she was dating her exfiancee and he was single.  What this means is I helped him cheat on her once, and had no idea and noone told me.  What this also means is who the hell are all my friends who didnt' tell me and were ( Read more... )

Three years later and the "goodbye" I get is "Sorry you ever met me.  Have a great life."  What type of "good friend" lets a friend out of their life without caring at all?  Oh wait.  They're not really a good friend ( Read more... )

No regrets.  Never look back. 

Levi's gone.

It's his last night in town.  I haven't seen him at all today aside from before we left with his truck this morning.  I'm not someone he wants to spend his last night in town with.  Or so I'm assuming due to his lack of response to my attempts at communication.  He's one of my best friends.  That hurts.  I think I'm going crazy.  I just have to ( Read more... )

I don't want to work ok my thesis.  If I don't get a chunk done this week of the lit review/methods, I'll be screwed later.  Course, I don't want to deal with school in general.  It's an overcast, rainy, miserable day outside.  Characterizes how I feel.  I'm sick of people lying to me.  Especially random new people.  Makes a great impression lemme ( Read more... )

My roommate officially hates me.  It used to be that he only ignored almost all of my phone calls.  Now it's text messages as well.  And all communication.  The one time I saw him yesterday he walked past without acknowledging that either me or our third roommate existed.

Happy Easter

I hate being a stupid girl. It just makes me feel like crap. I'm smarter than this. I guess I'm really not.

I think this semester may be looking up. I have friends in my classes, I can ask them questions when I don't get it and I feel less stupid since they don't always understand either. I got all my reading done in advance this week. I think I can handle it. I'm working on procrastinating less, sleeping less (ie getting my butt out of bed on ( Read more... )