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i'll to take a walk along the beach feeling the sandy air trying to convince me to go, and ill find a nice little place where the waves wash up. ill sit in the sand and think over it all. ill find the wall that surrounds my heart. its built so high and ill wonder why because i know these brittle bones couldnt build a masterpiece like this. ill ( Read more... )

i went to the ER today. i couldnt breath and my heart was racing and i had the shakes. it was weird. ask me about it for details. lol... i feel lame.

i missed school though.

lata!

you want WHAT with me?!
i'm gonna tell you one time, dont FUCK with me!
get DOWN! cause i ain't got nothin to loose,
and i'm having a bad day,
don't make me take it out on YOU

Im ready for total happiness. does that even exist?

i had a revelation this morning.

nope it wasnt at church... i was watching joel osteen instead and reading his book. it made me completely change the way im looking at fixing my problems.

ive been going about them the ENTIRELY wrong way! i feel amazing! i ahvent even done anything yet but i feel sooooooo amazing!

i WILL be happy

ok.. so i cant talk to ANYONE about this cause whenever i do theyre like... man i wish i had that problem. yea wel let me tel you... you DON'T ok ( Read more... )

It's been a while since i updated last.

and a lot has happened.

I went to ohio for a week over christmas. and it snowed 2 feet!!!!!! it was below 10 degrees all week so it was verrrrrrrrry cold and my fingers got frostbite. it was great to see all of my family though.

theni was home tuesday and did some shopping.

wednesday i totally hit up the ( Read more... )

Well i guess its just one of those days. or rather its turning into one of those weeks. where your just depressed and mad about everything at everyone for no real paticular reason.

im so sick of this place and my life and how i feel. it never goes away and no one seems to understand. it seems like i try to let it out but no one quite hears me and ( Read more... )

today devon has the sniffles. shes feeling under par. shes just not herself ( Read more... )

i have somthing to say. i usually i do. tiday i went and listened to a survivor of the holocaust speak about her time. it was absolutely mind blowing. i loved it. im sp glad i experienced that. and she told us of her husband... he was the man who liberated her. how AMAZING is that? to have the one person that is made for you do the most amazing ( Read more... )