unfortunate how the past clouds us
how tattered hatred clots our passing

i bear you no ill will
crawling upon this earth
an ant amongst many

sundered forever perhaps by history
let burnt pages remain ashes
let the new speak for itself

this weekend is/was convergence, the goth conference, in new orleans. last week matthew invited me to the rasputina show which was last night. i'm still recovering. it was quite an evening. so many corsets. so much jack daniels. the concert was amazing. i also saw some of the people i had lost touch with since the storm. sadly, most of them now ( Read more... )

just got back from seeing jello biafra (leader singer from the dead kennedys) do a spoken word performance. i haven't seen something that amazing in awhile. the political rhetoric was sometimes dragging but the performance pieces were flawless. everything i could expect from such an iconic punk figure. and i was impressed by a generous ( Read more... )

my car is in the shop. nothing drastic. i'm finally getting his brakes and suspension checked out ( Read more... )

dan's mom died. i don't even know what i feel right now.

"i'm as puzzled as a newborn child.
i'm as riddled as the tide.
should i stand amid the breakers?
or shall i lie with death my bride?
hear me sing: 'swim to me, swim to me, let me enfold you.
here i am. Here i am, waiting to hold you.'"

have to bump the less than happy entries down. cause i'm more or less doin great now. school is still kickin my ass. nothing i can do about that but use the "slow and steady" approach and just keep my nose to the grindstone. and use as many cliches as possible ( Read more... )

i've lost someone i once held very dear. and i feel a part of me is gone. i am left with a void. and a hole in the wall. and though i in no way release myself from blame, i simply do not understand people. myself included. how we can be so disrespectful. so thoughtless. so cold. and in the end mourn the loss we have created ( Read more... )

in the real world when people don't include you in regular social activities it's usually because they don't want you in their social group. and not in a malicious way. but not everyone is meant to get along. the world can't be friends. you can't hug with nuclear arms. ordinarily if people consistently don't invite you to basic social events ( ( Read more... )

i had one of the best valentine's days ever. probably the best actually. woke up to a txt msg. came home from my first class to flowers and a little vday bag from my roommate. then came home from my last class to a card and next day air'd cupcakes from new york. i didn't even get that much stuff for my birthday. also walked around the quarter with ( Read more... )

coffee is so great. why don't people write more songs about it ( Read more... )