i love my sister. i wish i could see her now. i 'm sorry i know it doesn't help things to say it- but sometimes i get a wave of missing her so much that i just burst out crying ( Read more... )

i am incapable of actually making progress in my work. i'd rather spend my time surfing the web and updating lj than using my brain for thinking and writing down all the good shit i come up with. i told myself 3 pages a day. ha ( Read more... )

For the most part I'm in love but sometimes I get annoyed or angry or lose my patience with Gil and then I wonder if we are truly right for each other. Bu tthen like yesterday when I was reading this amazing short story, "the breif and wonderous life of Oscar Wao" I was thinking about Gili the whole time and really how i love the smallest little ( Read more... )

not doing my work. what's new? told myself i would try to write 20 minutes a day. hasn't really happened yet. but i have been listening to tony robbins tapes that gil borrowed from a relative in miami a few years ago. i quite like tony robbins and i do my "homework assignments" religiously. unfortunately that's all i do. my paper is absolutley ( Read more... )

yes'um it's been forever since i typed up what's been going down... it's just so much has been happening i hardly have the energy to sit and blab about my life. gil is my boyfriend although we have had so many ups and downs that for a while he would not call me his "girlfriend" for fear that that would scare me into feeling suffocated and running ( Read more... )

i'm mad at lj since last time when it erased all my good shit ( Read more... )

just wrote a very emotional entry about what i've learned this year about myself and what it means to have been on earthfor a quarter century etc. and of course as my luck would have it i accidentally pressed ont he wrong button and everything got erased. all i can say is that maybe it was something that was so personal that it wasn't truly meant ( Read more... )

two days ago i came back from a relaxing weekend in the carmel with my family to find that I had BEEN ROBBED!!!! they took everything electronic in the house including my pride and joy, my eMac. (Not to mention my brother's laptop and two DV cameras i had in the house...) I've sort of flipping on the inside, like in some ways i'm fine but then ( Read more... )

my entire family is asleep in my apartment‭. ‬it has been so amazing with them‭... ‬this family bonding is sometimes so necessary and is magnified by the daily distance‭. ‬Still I usually wish that my parents lived within‭ "‬let's get a cup of coffee‭" ‬distance but maybe it is better that i have my‭ "‬freedom‭" ‬to grapple with ( Read more... )

well‭, ‬that was quick‭. ‬don't get me wrong i'm still rather obsessing about shlomi but this shai guy‭- ‬the one i went out with the other night is actually realy awesome and is definately into me to some degree as he has called everyday since said date‭. ‬Shai's a real sweetheart‭- ‬we hit it off pretty well‭, ‬and he happens to be very good ( Read more... )