ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this suckssssssssssssssss. what a sad breakup. ive lost 2 of my best friends in 3 months. if you woulda told me in january that next month lauren was gonna die and 2 months later me and greg were gonna break up i woulda laughed your sorry ass off the block. but ive really realized how this is in a way unconventional because we ( Read more... )

I said.. fuck this relationship, and the crying and the heightening of the anxiety and the depression that came from his silence and distance. because I will tell you what i DONT need and what i CANT handle.. and that my friend, is silence, and distance ( Read more... )

I dont trust anyone I've met in the past year. Yep. That's pretty much it.

This is my life: my supervisor makes me lead early recognition phase one group therapy on the grief and loss process. so here we go... I am bouncing in between phases 3,4, and 5, bargaining, anger, and depression.. all day everyday. Leading group therapy on the subject I am IN therapy for. Uhhhhhhhh? I dont want the constant thought of death to be ( Read more... )

and another thing i thought of recently... how lucky we are to say goodbye to some of the people we lose in our lives. How lucky we are to spend last moments with our grandparents, aunts, uncles, one day our mothers and fathers. And what a darkness there is to not getting a chance to say goodbye... or the lack of a note in this case. I really love ( Read more... )

why do i listen to music that makes me cry then while its making me cry i continue to listen to it. fuck this shit!

This whole situation has been insane. It's hard having a boyfriend who has many different ideals about life and death than I do. However I'm happy I can remain well differentiated and maintain my own belief system. Sitting in Wegman's off the Boulevard w Mbwana right now. I figured I might as well give my absolute best shot to this test that I have ( Read more... )

I have been struggling so much with Laurens death, and have felt complete trauma on top of things because I found her. Ive been feeling absolutely nothing positive from her death since it happened, feeling no comfort in her in an afterlife, feeling barely any comfort from the church service. However, I believe she was with me today. I have no idea ( Read more... )

When is the pain going to stop.
How could this happen?
HOW.
How did I never know.

My internship is my dream job. I feel like I'm being trained for the actual job right now. Got thrown into a counseling session today not thinking I was going to do it for awhile but it felt natural right away, I didn't have enough time to over think the situation, and it rolled. It's always easier when the client is an easier one especially if ( Read more... )